It’s so overwhelming – and I only had twins, so I am only guessing at your feelings – and there’s so much love, but you’re so tired, SO TIRED, all the time. I remember staring at people, when they suggested possibilities like, “just running to the grocery store” and thinking, “you just have no idea what that’s like in my world, do you?”

And I hear your heart in your yearning for your old, normal devotional life, and I just wanted to encourage you to also remember the verse that says, “He gently leads those with young.” Taking care of your kids takes everything right now, and He knows that because He gave them to you. I really encourage you not to despair at how little of the Bible you’re getting to read, but instead to just give each act of love to your children in Jesus’ name, remember that in serving them, you are serving him.

I took a lot of comfort in the Jesus prayer – just the simple, “Lord Jesus, have mercy on me.”, and resting in his mercy and love throughout my day. Sometimes I think this experience taught me how to pray – how to really just rely on the Lord for the moment-by-moment strength I needed, and now that my kids are older, and I have more time to read the Bible, I can carry that knowledge of prayer with me too.

Anyway, thank you for writing this, and God bless you in your daily life and work.